Greetings and salutations! 

I have experimenting in the kitchen again, and for once, it's not to make a dessert!

Calamari is one of the few types of seafood that I can eat. I developed an allergy to shellfish when I was a child, much to my chagrin. Yet it's a foodstuff that I don't have much experience cooking. This recipe would only be my second time using the whole calamari, rather than the precooked breaded variety. 

My first attempt had been an Italian stuffed calamari recipe. Which was super good but took me three times as long to make as it should have. So for my second try, I decided to go for something a little, a lot simpler. And in my search on Pinterest, I came across a recipe for a spicy Chinese-style stir fry which sounded right up my alley. 

Original recipe that I adapted from: https://omnivorescookbook.com/spicy-squid-stir-fry/. 

The only trouble was....I didn't have half of the ingredients. Chinese cuisine is usually something I buy, not something I cook, lol. My family is also not much into spicy stuff anyway.

So, I improvised with the ingredients I had, made some substitutions and the results came out absolutely amazing! 

The only thing that didn't really work was...how I cut the calamari. The original recipe had said to split and score them and that they would curl up. Mine didn't do that, and those tubes were kinda big to get the mouth around. And nothing is worse than trying to chew a slightly rubbery squid tube that's too big for the mouth. So I highly recommend cutting the tubes into pieces for easier eating. 

Sweet Squid Stir Fry Recipe: 

Serves 4.

Ingredients:

3 10.6 oz packages of frozen PenaPesca calamari tubes and tentacles, thawed.

Cooking sherry 

2-3 bell peppers, chopped

1 white onion, chopped

1 clove garlic, minced

Sauce:

1/3 cup water

1/6 cup Kikoman Sweet Soy Sauce

2 tsp sesame seeds

1- 1 1/2 tsp cumin

1- 1 1/2 tsp ginger powder

2 tsp corn starch

Directions:

1. Chop calamari tubes into wide rings or strips. Marinate tube pieces and tentacles in cooking sherry and set aside. 

2. Caramelize bell pepper and onion pieces over medium heat. Add minced garlic towards end. 

3. Combine sauce ingredients into bowl. Stir occasionally to keep contents from settling. 

4. Remove calamari from the marinade. Saute calamari on high for a few minutes, drain as needed. 

5. Combine veggies, calamari and sauce, cook on medium for a few minutes to thicken the sauce. 

6. Remove from heat and serve immediately with white rice. 

 

Recently, I watched the movie Cabrini in theaters. I was quite impressed with it as a whole, and I highly recommend everyone to see it. 

But what struck the most about the movie was not the slight "feminist" overtones or the perceived lack of faith elements that most people point out. 

It was how Mother Cabrini carried the cross of chronic illness.  One line in particular struck me hard:

"We can serve our weakness, or we can serve our purpose. We cannot do both." ~ Cabrini

While this could be dismissed as a sort of parallel to the "cannot serve two masters" proverb from Holy Scripture, when shared in the light of chronic illness, it takes in a whole new meaning. 

I am no stranger to chronic illness or pain. Migraines, tensions headaches, nausea, pelvic pain, and shoulder/rib pain have been my companions for nearly ten years now. Sometimes the pain flares are so bad that it's hard to function. I now require a surgery, which will hopefully give me a diagnosis and relief for some of the pain. 

It gives a whole new meaning to the phrase "I'm tired."

When we struggle with chronic illness -whether it be physical or mental - burnout is not only common, but can be very painful. We self-isolate and struggle on our own because we don't want to inflict that pain on others. 

Lately, I have been rather annoyed with people who tell us to be generous with God and neighbor. And yes, that's a symptom of my own selfishness. I feel as though I have nothing to give because I've given so much away these last five years and received less than I thought due (yet, the Lord is more than generous with me!)

When faced with this, the world tells us to rest, to take care of ourselves. 

But this is not what Mother Cabrini does. 

In the movie, Mother Cabrini is seen pursuing children that she wishes to being to her orphanage. She has a tuberculosis flare, which leaves her struggling to breathe. These flares continue to pop up through the course of the movie, threatening to destroy her. 

Yet, she does not stop. 

This doesn't mean that she doesn't go slow on occasion, or actively avoids medical attention. Nor is she afraid of delegating tasks. She's also wise enough to keep preparing her sisters for her eventual death, by encouraging leadership among themselves. 

The important thing is that she does not stop.

Because of the flares, there is a theme among wiser folks - doctors, superiors, etc. - always advising Mother Cabrini to cut back, to rest, to "stay where you are." 

Yet in a conversation with Vittoria at the well, Mother Cabrini gives this startling quote. 

"When I rest, that's when the dying begins" ~ Cabrini

This line was proven later when Cabrini comes back from a meeting with the Italian Senate, and she tells her sisters she needs to rest. Immediately afterwards, Mother Cabrini's health and mental well-being reaches a low point. But she is pushed by Vittoria to pick up the cross again, reminded of how strong she truly is. 

Ironically, I related to this in my own life. When I decided to cut back on my activities this past year, my physical health had a minor improvement. But my mental health didn't fare as well. My writing suffered a similar fate. But surrounding myself with a strong active community, both in the writing and in my personal life, has pushed me to want to be more active. And I'm extremely grateful for that. 

I want to stress that this is not a condemnation of rest in general. No human can keep a sustained amount of energy without being replenished. 

What I condemn, however, is sloth. 

The attitude of "I can't fast because it makes me weak."

The attitude of "I can't exercise because it hurts too much."

The attitude of "I can't wake up on time, my body doesn't cooperate". 

I got news for you. It will never cooperate. It's flesh, it has desires of it's own. You - your inner soul - will need to triumph over that. 

Your body actually reserves 60% of it's energy sources during exercise. It's a survival mechanism. Your body can be stretched much more than you think it can. But YOU need to make that decision to take control. Your will needs to be on top, rather than your body. 

Watching Mother Cabrini stare at the mirror, drawing up strength to fulfill the day's tasks is not just a relatable thing. It's a source of inspiration. Her chronic illness was her cross, and our chronic illnesses are ours. 

Do not stop fulfilling your purpose...even if you fall under the weight of your cross for a moment. Pick it up again, and follow Christ. 

God bless, 

Catherine Hawthorn 

Note: This is an edited repost of a post I had written for the blog Maidens for Mary, which has since gone inactive. 

Greetings to you, dear readers!

This week, the whole Church begins to celebrate Passiontide, which includes Palm Sunday, Maundy Thursday, Good Friday and ends on Holy Saturday. From there, the Church moves into a long season of rejoicing as Easter is celebrated!

Considering the above, it is no surprise that April is known as the month devoted to the Holy Eucharist.

For this post, I want to highlight two well-known saints who's feast days are in April: St. Gemma Galgani and St. Bernadette Soubirous.

St. Gemma Galgani Source: www.stgemmagalgani.com

St. Gemma Galgani was born in 1878 near Lucca, Italy. From childhood, she developed the virtues of modesty, piety, chastity, purity, obedience and faith with the upmost care. As a young girl, she developed spinal tuberculosis and was cured as a result of a novena to the Sacred Heart. She was a mystic from an early age, and received the stigmata. While she wished to be a Passionist nun, she remained hidden in the world - keeping busy by seeing to the needs of her family and visiting the sick. She was a perfect victim of suffering and was always resigned and joyful. She died on April 11 1903, at the age of 25, as a result of tuberculosis of the lungs. She is hailed as the patroness of pharmacists (because it was her father's trade), orphans, those suffering from back pain, those suffering from headaches and migraines, those suffering from temptations to impurity, as well as patroness to students and Italian paratroopers/parachutists. 

For those who wish to know more about St. Gemma Galgani, I would recommend that you visit the website that bears her name, which you can find HERE. I most recommend the following articles: Life of Gemma Galgani, and St. Gemma's Heroic Chastity and Purity.

St. Bernadette Soubirous Source: Wikipedia

St. Bernadette Soubirous was born in Lourdes, France in 1844. She was born the first of several children, and lived in poverty. She was a shepherdess as a child for a peasant woman who fostered her for a time. She frequently suffered from chronic illness, including asthma. At the age of 14, she was favored with visions of the Blessed Virgin, who asked for penance and a shrine at Lourdes. In her early 20s, Bernadette entered into the convent of the Sisters of Charity at Nevers. She spent most of her 13 year tenure as a religious sister in the infirmary - both as a nurse and as a patient. She also was a talented embroiderer. During the last years of her life, she developed tuberculosis of the bone from a tumor on her knee. She died on April 16, 1879 at the age of 35. She is the patroness of illness, shepherds, poverty, people ridiculed for piety, and of Lourdes, France.


For those who want to know more about St. Bernadette, I would recommend the book The Song of Bernadette, and the movie by the same name. It is by far the most comprehensive biography of St. Bernadette that I've found. I've also used the following sites to compile this biography: EWTN and Catholic Online.



I hope that the intercession and examples of these saints will inspire you all to greater sanctity and to reflect the greater glory of God in your own lives. 

God bless,